Well it’s over. After 5 years, I am alone. What do I do now? How do I continue living my life without the love of my life, my best friend? How do I even keep going?
What do you do when you can feel your 5 year long relationship slipping through your fingers and you can’t do anything about it?
I just want to be happy.
Is that too much to ask?
I am taking a personal narrative writing workshop this quarter and I am planning on writing a 10-15 page memoir on my struggle with depression and how I fought my way out of it. This is going to be really tough as I will be sharing this piece with my entire class. I think it will be very liberating though. I hope it goes well!
TOMORROW IS MY 21ST BIRTHDAY!
I AM SO EXCITED!
So I am going to get a little personal here.
Here is some back story. My boyfriend and I have almost been together for 5 years and I started working out and getting healthy 2 years ago. He use to work out a lot way before we started dating but for various reasons he stopped. When he was 20 (6 years ago) he was diagnosed with a heart condition after having a heart attack at a party. Since then he really hasn’t taken care of himself. He is naturally thin, but he eats tons of junk food, smokes a lot, drinks lots of soda and doesn’t exercise. I have been trying to tell him for the last 2 years that he needs to get healthy. I literally break down and cry from fear because he is slowly killing himself.
BUT! About a week ago he decided he was going to start changing his life. He is eating about 99.9% of his meals at home, so they are healthier than fast food, drinking more water and DOING HOME WORKOUTS EVERY NIGHT! It has only been a week, but I am so proud. He can’t afford a gym membership right now, but he is working out at home, using bags full of water bottles as weights and other creative shit like that. Seriously, I am about to explode from happiness. All I want is for him to be happy and healthy. That is literally all I want. I hope he keeps this up. I am going to support him every step of the way and keep on him about doing this.
NEXT GOAL? GET HIM TO QUIT SMOKING!
It’s about time for tattoo #3!
I’m getting anxious :D
I need to make an appointment!